evolving our relationship to the bread 🍞
Julio, thank you - I especially appreciate how you reframe the process of decolonizing to re-indigenizing. The emphasis on reclamation and remembering as taking back something, rather than taking away, feels so much more wholesome and hopeful. I hear you on the money front, finding a skillful and sustainable balance is so tricky, I find, especially because there is the system of capitalism to consider and work within. I find that makes it hard for me to know where to pitch myself and offer to others without some kind of framework! I've been inspired by friends and guides who moot what is sustainable for them as a base rate, then suggest a pay-it-forward rate, and a higher rate that contributes more. That gives space to offer something within or beyond those rates while knowing what an individual needs to make it work for them. Although maybe that's still an approach bound by the systems we're trying to change?! As you can see, I'm still figuring this one out!! Thank you for the prompts to help along the way :)
Yes, thanks Julio. I too have been mulling over these questions. Like Aliyah I also like the reframe of decolonizing to re-indigenizing. It reminds of dieting advice I got years ago — add in good things and the not-so-good things will naturally away. The idea of re-indeginizing also invites me to remember and draw in my ancestors as my wise elders and allies. I like that. I particularly like it because (for reasons both obvious and unique to my family) I feel somewhat disconnected to my ancestors.
Money… my entire career I have felt a pressure to perform. It is the narrative of a young and ambitious professional but certainly woven in there is an additional narrative as a young gay man trying to make his way. I am also a highly sensitive and introverted person and work-life required me to come out of my shell, probably necessary but stressful. Outside the comfort of my internal world I often felt anxious and suffered from perfectionism one constant imposter syndrome. Under this sustained anxiety, my breathing shallowed, I ground my teeth, chewed the inside of mouth, and at its worst experienced severe anxiety dreams. So I know all too well the reason for and benefits of apps like Liberate that bring us back to our center and helps us live from a place of love and abundance and self-compassion. It is the healing that has brought me healing and a different kind of success in my career.
It is hard to think of playing with money within our capitalistic framework. I have recently, though, had an experience of having enough which has felt liberating. Moving out of the US, particularly from the San Francisco Bay Area and Silicon Valley, has allowed me to see how much I was caught up in the treadmill of more and more. Now, living abroad in Portugal, I have recalibrated and have found a new balance in life and a different appreciation for money and how much is enough. Within this new reality I do actually feel more playful, not just with the money but with life. I invest money in kind acts, in beauty, and in myself and things that make me feel alive, like my art.
This is so liberating. I experience that I feel most myself when creating - more confident, more alive, calmer, grounded, secure. When creating I feel a flow of energy that is life giving, especially when I am creating for myself with a free agenda. This is how I am playing now.
Your question, as I understood it, is about what I think we (the human collective) need in a new society not predicated on fear and scarcity. Please correct me if I am not getting it.
We need an example that it can work, we have been force feed a lie for so long that we can't help but believe that this model of governing human behaviors is a necessary evil because we can't be trusted. We have learned to not trust each other or ourselves. So, I believe what we need is a working model that demonstrates not only that we can trust each other but that we don't need fear to do it.